Well, our homestudy didn't get sent to the State after all last week--some final edits were needed by the agency. It was supposed to be mailed today and I somehow resisted the urge to email and ask..."So, did it get mailed??" (I actually wrote the email but deleted it) :)
I'm sure all will work out as it is supposed to, but right now I'm a little deflated. In late March, we thought we would be on the wait list by early April, and now it's almost the middle of May, and we're still not on the list... And the list is growing longer and longer. When we first signed on with the agency, there were 20-something families on the infant girl list....now it's in the 50s. It's just hard because I remember this frustration from our first adoption...the waiting, the not knowing...it's the hardest.
But, I also know that the first time around it was all worth it. Every excruciating second, because our son is so amazing and we are the luckiest family in the world to have him. And there are now 3 times as many orphanages that our agency is working with compared to when we signed on, which will no doubt speed up referrals. It's just hard knowing your child is out there (or soon will be) and you can't be with her....
So, here's to patience. During our first adoption, a dear friend told me that maybe patience is the lesson I was supposed to be learn through it all. Of course, my brother-in-law says patience (patients) are people in hospitals! Ha!
Fingers crossed that we'll be on the wait list next week :)
Kirsta